The Girl Dreamer

hindi ko alam ngaun kung ano talaga ang tingin sakin ni mommy..nagbigay ulit ako ng letter sa kanya kahapon..asking for an advice coz i cant really handle my problems well..i dont know kung anong reaction nya sa letter..she did not text me again about it eh..i dont know if she read it already or what..
so kanina, i saw her when we went up to go to ms padua..nakasalubong ko cya and so nag wave lang ako ng hi sa kanya..she did not make me pansin that much..and i dont know why..ang sabi lang nya, "san kau pupunta?" and sabi namin, "kay ms padua po." and then she pointed at me and said, "i'll write you a letter.." so that's just it..it was the dullest thing that happened between us..i cant remember a time na nagkasalubong kami and she didnt hug me sa entire time na magkakilala kami..she always make it a point that she hugs me or she kisses me if we see each other sa corridors..but yung ngyari kanina..ewan..hindi nya ko hinug..hindi ko alam kung bakit..feeling ko tuloy, she's kind of pissed at me..maybe she's thinking na im overthinking everything..cguro naiinis cya sakin kasi mashado kong hinahayaan na i-let down ako ng problems ko..hayyy..sabi ko na nga ba eh...sana hindi ko nalang cnabi sa knya..nasa huli talga ang pagsisisi..hay hay hay..
if that act that i did will cause a problem sa relationship namin ngaun, hindi ko na talga alam gagawin ko..if ever that happens, it just means that sira nako kay mader, wala nakong communication with ate nancy and badtrip sakin si mommy..nice one..what a great life..ah si ms jim naman, malayo sakin at iiwan din ako soon..galing noh..NAPAKASWERTE KO NAMAN..WOW..=(

PRAYER:
Papa God, wala, ganun parin, kayo na pong bahala..hindi ko naman po kasi talga alam kung anong gagawin ko eh..sobrang clueless on what to do about things..i dont know na talaga kaya kayo na po ang mag lead sakin sa tamang landas..

>>>seventeen