The Girl Dreamer
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
COLLEGE=HELL
- blockmates
- professors
- schedule
- mode of transportation = BUS
- people in the bus
- surroundings
- schoolmates
- schoolworks
- bad internet connection
- family related problems
- other emotional thoughts/concerns
- MONEY
- TIME
- EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!
what more if im on my second? third? fourth? fifth year? wouldnt that mean that it will even be worse when i get to higher level of education? who the hell invented education? isnt it just making ourlives stressful? isnt it just making things complicated?
i dont know..maybe im just being so negative about things because of all the stress and all the problems im having..
one worst thing in college = new people/ "friends" - what the hell!!! i dont even know who amongst my blockmates are my true friends..almost all of them are being involved in something that i dont like, some get into fights, cheating, gambling, smoking, "sexytime", cutting classes!!!! i mean, lets all be honest, this is not supposed to be like this!!! what the hell is happening to this generation???? i dont want to sound so mushy/cheezy/oh so sipsip trying to be a good student here..whatever you call that thing..im just trying to look into the future..seeing us, teenagers act this way NOW, there's a big chance of us being worse when we grow older..what then will happen to our world if that happens??? i dont want to be involved in those kind of things..i want to graduate with a good reputation for the sake of my future, of my family and for the name of my school as well..i want to prove everyone that la salle do bring up students properly and not the other way around..
professors, they just cant seem to understand things at times..it so hard to deal with some of them..especially when your prof is kind of old already and also for some gay perfectionist..it sucks!! they get so irritating and demanding..arghhhh!!! i wish that i can have my high school teachers as my college professors..that way, my life in college will be less tiring and less irritating..haaayy..
groupmates, schoolmates, schoolwroks, school stuff - there are just people who uber love to gossip that even for the time intended for the planning of a project or report, they still talk about other things..consequence is they dont know what happened to the report/presentation we made..they then are called to report for our group, they dont know anything, reported by just reading what's on the acetate, professor became pissed..what's next? THEY will RUDELY blame everything to us - that we did not allow them to help, that we're hugging all the work, that we did not let them participate, that we did not accept their ideas, that we did everything so it will look like we're the responsible ones..COME ON!!! OFCOURSE we wanted help, ofcourse we wanted their ideas, ofcourse we NEEDED their opinion..who would want to make a long report alone???? but HELL, what can we do???? we are just poor responsible students who doesnt want to have low grades thats why we did the report on our own because THEY WERE JUST THERE CHATTING AND TELLING STORIES/GOSSIPS..can we force them to participate if they dont want? isnt it that IF THEY REALLY WANT TO PARTICIPATE, THEY WILL IMMEDIATELY AND WILLINGFULLY GIVE HELP????? but that was not the freakin' case so they shouldnt be accusing us of something that we did not do or calling us something that we are not! stupid groupworks!!!!
MONEY MONEY MONEY!!! wth, money? for what? FOR EVERYTHING!!! photocopy this, photocopy that, you need this, you need that, pay this, pay that..nerve wrecking need of money..expensive food, bus fair hike, expensive clothes, EXPENSIVE EVERYTHING!!! waaahhh!!!!
addition to all the stress, PROBLEMS!!! when it comes to emotions, it can really be so difficult for me to handle..being someone who have had many emotional experiences in life, i thought id get tired of being so emotional once i get to college..i thought that id be so much focused with my school stuff that i wont have time thinking about those hurtful things..but i was wrong..there will always be times that you'd get to reminisce, backtrack, just randomly be emotional and miss the past and CRY..its getting tiring at times but i cant help it..im a crybaby..owel!!!
waaahhhh i dont want this anymore..i want comfort, security, relaxation, true friends, responsible acquaintances, better professors, less workload, etc..
I JUST WISH!!!!
PRAYER:
its all up to you Lord GOD!!!
>>>seventeen
5 Comments:
tin tin! okay lang yan. ganyan talaga ang buhay. well, siguro pagdating ng second, third, fourth (may fifth year ka ba? haha) eh sanay na tayo sa mga ganyan. masyado lang siguro natin nacocompare ang college sa high school kasi dun tayo galing pero college is so different (obviously haha)
blockmates - kinda feel the same way, pero as long as you don't get influenced by them, okay lang yun. we handle life in different ways. sa ganung paraan, matututunan nila ang hirap ng buhay. alam mo yun, yung mauuna yung masamang bagay bago yung mabuti. in short, they'll eventually learn from their experiences. hayaan mo na sila, you never know, they might even become people we need in the future. don't lose hope in them.
profs - i know what you mean about gay profs. but in fairness, they're super funny! but anyway, somehow alam ko na na ganun yung mga prof. syempre maraming nagsasabi na malulupet talaga ang prof sa college (natakot nga ko magcollege dahil dun eh hahah) then again, sanayan lang yan! :D
groupworks - oh gosh i can soooo relate! you know what i mean. hindi ko masyado nabasa yung part na to pero... sinabi mo ba sa kanila yung mga sinabi mo dito? if not, i guess its time to be bitchy when they're bitchy. fight kung kinakailangan! aba wala silang rason para sumagot kasi sila yung mali (i know, ipagpipilitan nilang ikaw yung mali) you know what's right and what's true, so bahala sila kung ano isipin nila basta alam mong ginawa mo yung part mo as a member.
problems - they come and go. you might think na hindi mawala wala yung problems pero they do, you just have to be strong :D kaya mo yan! at andito lang naman ako, laging sumusubaybay sa iyong blog :D haha
*BIG BIG HUG*
friend! huwag ka na mabadtrip... that's life. minsan kailangan mong maharap sa mga ganitong situtation para maging strong... dito naman kameng mga true fiends mo eh hindi kame mawawala... ako na mimiss ko na ung high school pero wala na akong magawa... masgusto ko din mag high school dahil sa mga taong nakakasama natin... ang ginagawa ko na lang ngayon pag papasok ako sa school iniicip ko na mabilis ang araw hindi mo napapasin na matatapos ka na pala sa college... yoon na lang iniicip ko para hindi ko na mafeel na nalulungkot ako...
doon sa mga blockmates mo hayaan mo na sila... kasalanan nila kung bakit sila pinapagalitan ng prof... kung alam mo naman ginawa mo ung part mo don't be afraid tama ka naman eh...
sa mga ayaw nating mga prof... alam mo naman din na ayaw ko ung mga prof ko... pero wala akong magawa kung hindi paki samahan na lang... kase sila talaga ung makakasama mo until the end of the term malapit na matapos ung 2nd term hindi mo na rin sila makikita palagi... yan na lang iniicip ko kapag naiinis ako sa kanila...
sa mga work sa school alam ko naman na super responsible ka... hayaan mo na ung mga sinasabi ng iba basta alam mo na tama ginagawa mo hayaan mo... hello walang masamang maging responsible...
yan mga problems mo mawawala din yan... hindi lang ngayon pero in time mawawala din... pag hindi mo na naman kaya dito kame mga friends mo dito ako... laging handang makinig sayo... be strong... kaya mo yan... GO GIRL!!! :)
waaahhhh salamat sa inyong dalawa..buti nandyan kayo lagi para sumubaybay sa mga blogs ko..huhuhu..nakakaiyak talaga..kasi naman, sobrang hirap na!!!! ayoko na!!! waaahhh!!! pero owel salamat talaga nini ang natie! love you both! di ko alam gagawin ko kung wala kayo..walang magsasayang ng panahon para basahin ang blog ko kundi kayong dalawa lang..salamat talaga..dito lang din ako para sa inyong dalawa..=)mwah! kaya natin toh friends! hehe..=)
heller! kung sinasabi mo ba to sa ibang close friends mo eh, syempre may susubaybay din dito hahaha [sorry may pagka-sabaw ako sa mga reply ko ngayon dahil medyo lang, inupload ko yung more or less 200 pictures namin kanina hahaha]
pero syempre, kami pa! talagang sinusubaybayan naman ang iyong talambuhay hahaha
ayoko nga toh pagkalat..edi lantaran na ung buhay ko..ayaw!!!! ahaha..=))
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