The Girl Dreamer

2 days ago, i was watching first time - a TV show here in the Philippines..there was a scene where these high school students went on their retreat and it was already their palanca reading time..letters from their parents and friends were read..they were all crying when suddenly, I FOUND MYSELF CRYING AS WELL!!! it was just weird..i know it wasnt because of the letters read..maybe it was just bacause i saw them crying all at the same time and my heart and brain reacted to it because it also wanted to burst out..FOR SO MANY REASONS!!! and there, though i didnt know specifically why, i cried! but of course pinigilan ko at some point, coz i didnt want anyone to see me crying..THAT WAS THE TIME I REALIZED THAT I NEED AN ALONE TIME..FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO RELEASE ALL THESE!!! but i guess i want it better if i can cry this out when i am THERE already..with YOU!

haaaaaayyyy its almost summer now..yet i still dont think about it that much..yeah im planning to take summer classes..but please, can i just die before enrollment begins? so that mom and dad wont join me with the hassle of this life..tama na..isang bagsakan ng pera nalang sa wake and burial ko..para wala nang aalalahanin na tuition sina mama at papa at para wala nang baon everyday..get it? i want it na rin naman eh..GIVE ME SOME REST, and just give me things to do when im with YOU already..LORD GOD, please i hope you understand me..i hope you agree with me with all the benefits this will give..the ones i mention to you everyday..please please please..

PRAYER:
please! i wont hold back, i will let go!

>>>seventeen