The Girl Dreamer

dear zpvw,

for the past months, i kept on thinking about you..not in a way that i enjoy it but in a way that it seems everything's falling apart between us..well maybe you dont notice it, or you simply do not have any care about it at all, but i do know the feeling that i am already being left behind..

i do know how busy you are with your work, but please dont give THAT as a reason why you werent able to go to the several dates we have already planned..and please please please, next time around keep the evidences..I CLEARLY SAW YOUR MESSAGE TO SIENNE AND ANGEL THAT YOU GUYS ARE GOING SOMEWHERE AND EVEN PLANNING FOR AN OVERNIGHT SAME DAY AS OUR SCHEDULED DAY AND EVEN MORE DAYS AFTER THAT..YOU GUYS TALKED ABOUT IT ON FB WALLS..HOW DO YOU THINK WILL I FEEL KNOWING THAT YOU FAILED US FOR OUR DATE AND NOW YOU'RE PLANNING AN OVERNIGHT WITH THEM? ISNT THAT SO TERRIBLE?

okay, let me clear things out..i do not have anything against angel and sienne..i even had an agreement with angel thru fb that until she's there at zobel, she'll take care of you..she assured me that and i am so grateful for her because of that..the thing is, please dont neglect us just because you already have them..i dont mind if we all go out together, whats important is you treat us and them fairly..

it isnt good to see that natie and i are now being neglected by you just coz you met them already..i know its kinda awkward but please dont forget all the things we've been through: times when we had to pick you up from deep depression, times when you needed us and we were there, all our good and bad times together, times when we all had an argument but we're able to pull it through, how natie and i became your babies knowing the fact that you and wekie need some people like us..

i just cant help but feel sad looking at our situation right now..you dont text us as often as before..you dont reply to my text messages and fb chats most of the time..feels like you dont need us in your life anymore..JUST TELL US IF YOU WANT US OUT OF YOUR LIFE ALREADY, SO THAT I CAN FIX THINGS AS EARLY AS NOW..you know it wont be easy for me, but you can make it a bit easier if you'd really be the one who will command me to go..do not let my feeling/instinct decide about this issue..

ITS ALL UP TO YOU NOW..I'VE LAID DOWN MY CARDS..NOW ITS YOUR MOVE THAT WILL MAKE THE DECISION..just remember that no matter what happens, i will still continue to love you forever - as my mother!

love,
YOUR SWEET TIN

PRAYER:
Lord God, help me find the answers..let me be able to do the right things..or better yet get me as soon as possible..i promise i wont hold back, i will let go! thank you!

>>>seventeen