The Girl Dreamer

OMG FIRST TIME TO CRY SA DLSU!!! last october 17, 2008..take note - seventeenth of the month pa talaga ha!! we went to the national museum as a requirement for our inthrop class..most of my blockmates decided to meet up sa south gate around 9am..I am supposed to be with leanne and the 'groupmates' but unfortunately (or shall i say FORTUNATELY???) when it was past 9am already, only me, leanne and rosemae were there, plus kristiann..we decided to wait until 9.15am, but still nobody from the groupmates came..leanne wanted to go na since wala na namang hinihintay, they were finding someone who knows how to go there..im not so sure kung san bababa pero i know how to go there..but since its my first day!! and mader gave me a bad news early that morning, plus the fact that i'll be with the groupmates..nagkahalo-halo na ung emotions..one of the groupmates wanted to take taxi/cab pa going to the national museum coz its not comfy to take a jeep daw, but wtf ang lapit lang kaya ng national museum para mag taxi pa!!!! HELLO!!! so i got pissed and asked another barkada from our block how they will go..they said that they're going to take a jeep so i decided to stay with them nalang..so nagtaka sila bigla kung bakit d ako sumama sa kanila, tapos medyo nagbulungan pa sila na parang ang weird ko naman daw..sabi ko mauna na sila..leanne and the groupmates went ahead and they took an FX going there..as they walked away from the southgate, tears fell from my eyes..super napikon na kasi ako..super naartehan..super nadaldalan..wala akong makitang rason kung bakit ako dapat sumama sa kanila nung araw na yun..as i cried, reese, mikko, che, cambay and the others comforted me..i know that reese understands why i cried, same with mariel and jeff and i think mikko also..for the others, they were clueless..wala sobrang sumabog nako..ayoko talaga sa kanila..ayoko na makipag plastikan..wala nako pakialam kung mahalata nila na umiiwas ako sa kanila..basta ako gusto ko ng real friends..gusto ko ng tao na alam kong tanggap ako..hindi yung umaarte lang na gusto ako pero hindi naman talaga..kaya kung ayaw nila sakin, edi ayaw ko rin sa kanila..hindi ko kailangan baguhin sarili ko para lang matanggap ng iba..at lalong hindi ko kailangan magbago, magpakacool, magpakarebelde KUNG PARA LANG SA GROUPMATES!!!! they are not worth it..pagod nako sa kanila..bahala na..

super thankful lang talaga ako sa barkada nina mikki na sinamahan ako nung day na yun sa museum..super saya to be with them..super thankful din ako sa barkada nina bo and reese kasi they are always there para ampunin ako at ngayon legally adopted nako ng barkada nila..super happy ko everytime im with them and never ako naleft out..dapat nung una palang sa kanila nako sumama..I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! sila ang masasabi kong mga TRUE FRIENDS SA COLLEGE!!!

super salamat at pagkatapos kong pumunta sa national museum ay nakasama ko ang uber walang kapalit na BARKADA ko from high school..sila ang super REAL friends ko..super they made me feel at home..super napakasaya talaga..super sarap nung feeling..ibang iba..lalo na nung pumunta kami sa ZOBEL..yun ang malupet na feeling ng HOME! sarap makipag kulitan with the teachers sa loob ng faculty..GRABE!!! sana HS nalang ulit ako pero owel..thanks kay nini, jenny, july, lari and sab for making me feel so happy after a disaster..=)

Lord God, thank you for letting me have true friends..kayo na pong bahala dun sa mga groupmates..sawang sawa na po ako sa pagkairesponsable nila..sawa nako sa mga gimmick at daldalan nila..time to be serious..time to pick the right friends..thank you God for letting me find my real friends sa katauhan ng barakada ni bo at barkada ni mikki pati narin barkada ni deirdre..actually true and real friends ko buong block EXCEPT the GROUPMATES..and of course for my HS barkada na truest friends ko!!! thank you God for REAL FRIENDS!!!