The Girl Dreamer

in just a span of about 2 years or more, 2 people left me and 1 person will soon leave me before this year ends..how unfortunate me..i shouldn't have loved them so much coz everytime one of them leaves, i get so hurt inside..i shouldn't have allowed myself to be so close to them resulting to this attachment that when brokem will cause so much pain..

mid 2007, around september of that year ms. jim left us..she resigned because of some personal reasons..she told me before that she'll finish the school year, but she didn't..december of the same year, 12th of december to be exact, mommy rogs' birthday to be even more exact, she announced that she'll leave zobel and will work in cavite after everything's fixed..i thought i'd be able to visit her in zobel from time to time, but that didn't happen and will not happen..end of the school year, she left and had her new life working for the school of her church..january 2009, just this month, 23rd of january, the birthday of my beloved ms madz, she ALSO announced something..somewhat the same from the announcement of mommy rogs..the only difference is that she won't transfer in another school, she won't be staying a little far from my home, she's going FARTHEST..to a place that is quite impossible for me to reach so easily..she told us that she's going abroad after this school year..she and her husband will already stay there for good..

i just can't believe that the one i chose will be the one who'll go far far away and the one i have decided to let go is the that's staying..VERY IRONIC..i hate to regret things i did, but i feel so sorry for myself..i think if it wasn't for my stupid heart, i wouldn't be in this kind of situation right now..

GOODBYE EVERYONE!!!!

i just hope no one else will leave me anymore..SEPARATION ANXIETY..i'm so tired of crying..give me a break..

i don't know what to say, Lord God..im sorry..

>>>seventeen