The Girl Dreamer
Sunday, February 20, 2005
I'm Completely Depressed!!!
I'm completely depressed..u know what??? im crying right now, my heart is also crying with my eyes.. i dont wanna feel this but it's happening..im depressed coz im so confused..im thinking of giving up someone i love.. if you're thinking that it's "ate", well you're wrong..it's not her and i will never give her up..this person is also very special to me and had given me so much happiness, this person raised me up to be a strong girl and to be what i am now.. this person contributed alot in my life.. had been giving me hope to reach my dreams..had been giving me strength to do well in school..had been giving me many sweet nothings..had been giving me life, i know that i shoudn't give up that person but now, im losing hope..i don't wanna be hurt again..i want to avoid that person because everytime i see that person, i just feel disregarded..i mean, taken for granted, as if im not existing into that person' s world..i love that person so much..i've given that person so much concern and i know that that person appreciated it..its just that i dont wanna hurt myself anymore.. i dont wanna sacrifice for nothing, i dont wanna cry for nothing...i think that im just giving myself a burden that makes me feel bad..that makes me feel that im just nothing in this world..that whatever i do, i wouldn't be a very special someone to that person..im just gonna be a simple girl in that person's life that just passed and eventually will leave..i know that i don't wanna be that kind of person to that special someone to me..i know that i don't wanna leave that person but i think i have to..meaning, there's a reason that's why i have to leave that person, not literally saying that im gonna leave that person, but i just wanna go to a different path and leave that path that that person is taking..i hope i could do this, i just need help from up above..i know that this decision will hurt me but i have to do this so that less hurt will come my way..i think that this is the solution for me to escape from this depression..one thing that i want to tell that person is goodbye and though i wont be so close to that person anymore, im still not gonna let my love to slip away..i will still love that person but i have to avoid that person now...i just have to..i just have to....
>>>seventeen
>>>seventeen
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