The Girl Dreamer

sabay kami nagkasakit kahapon..ni mader..okay weird..wala lang..ahaha..

uhmmm, eto songs of my life..for persef1 wala lang..for documentation..joke..eck eck lang..eto na:

the prayer
you raise me up - josh groban
power of the dream - celine dion
when you believe - whitney houston
with a smile - eraserheads
hero - mariah carey
greatest love of all - whitney houston
friends forever - vitamin C
because of you - martin keith
just once
leaving song
bye bye - mariah carey
sorry na - parokya ni edgar
thanks to you
wind beneath my wings - bette midler
grow old with you
lost in space
im not a girl not yet a woman
through the rain - mariah carey
i am free - mariah carey

ayan..share ko lang.. :)

PRAYER:
thank you po at gumaling ako agad..help me accept the things that are happening, guide me always Lord God..thank you and sorry for everything.. :)

>>>seventeen

in just a span of about 2 years or more, 2 people left me and 1 person will soon leave me before this year ends..how unfortunate me..i shouldn't have loved them so much coz everytime one of them leaves, i get so hurt inside..i shouldn't have allowed myself to be so close to them resulting to this attachment that when brokem will cause so much pain..

mid 2007, around september of that year ms. jim left us..she resigned because of some personal reasons..she told me before that she'll finish the school year, but she didn't..december of the same year, 12th of december to be exact, mommy rogs' birthday to be even more exact, she announced that she'll leave zobel and will work in cavite after everything's fixed..i thought i'd be able to visit her in zobel from time to time, but that didn't happen and will not happen..end of the school year, she left and had her new life working for the school of her church..january 2009, just this month, 23rd of january, the birthday of my beloved ms madz, she ALSO announced something..somewhat the same from the announcement of mommy rogs..the only difference is that she won't transfer in another school, she won't be staying a little far from my home, she's going FARTHEST..to a place that is quite impossible for me to reach so easily..she told us that she's going abroad after this school year..she and her husband will already stay there for good..

i just can't believe that the one i chose will be the one who'll go far far away and the one i have decided to let go is the that's staying..VERY IRONIC..i hate to regret things i did, but i feel so sorry for myself..i think if it wasn't for my stupid heart, i wouldn't be in this kind of situation right now..

GOODBYE EVERYONE!!!!

i just hope no one else will leave me anymore..SEPARATION ANXIETY..i'm so tired of crying..give me a break..

i don't know what to say, Lord God..im sorry..

>>>seventeen

ang gulo ng buhay...my gulay! di ba pwede ok nalang lahat lagi?!? duh tin siyempre hindi! alam mo na yan since before pa pero reklamo ka pa rin ng reklamo..

ano ba yan, nakakabaliw, pero owel medyo sanay na! sana lang maayos ULIT agad! rawr! d lang kasi talaga magiging normal kahit paulit ulit pang mangyari ang mga bagay bagay! dapat lang alam pano ihandle! whew! kakapagod pero alam kong kaya ko toh!

LORD, alam kong kaya ko toh at alam kong nandiyan lang kayo lagi para sakin! kaya natin toh!

>>>seventeen