The Girl Dreamer
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
bad3p
mula kahapon hanggang ngaun, lagi nalang malungkot ang hapon ko..i never imagined na iiyak ako dahil sa isang bagay na nakaraan na and at the same time sa isa pang bagay na dati naman ay hindi ko iniiyakan...ewan ko ba, nagiging super emotional ko na, darating ang araw, wala nang lalabas na luha mula sakin..as in mauubos ung supply kc lagi akong umiiyak..ayoko ng ganito..gusto ko tumawa..gusto ko masaya ako..gusto ko para akong nasa heaven.. ayoko yung laging lunod sa luha...nakakainis, lahat nalang ng aspeto malas ako, kaibigan, lalaki, mga tinuturing na pamilya sa school, haaaay, ewn ko ba...pagod nako pero di pede mag give up.. kaya ko toh at kakayanin ko toh..hindi pedeng sumuko agad..hangga't may buhay may pag asa kaya lalakasan ko ang loob ko..cguro nga pagsubok lang toh, mapapalitan din ng tuwa..sana malapit na yung part na yun ng buhay ko..yung saya..kc mas maganda yun eh..pero hindi ko pedeng baliwalain yung kung ano yung nangyayari ngaun..kailangan kong maging matatag at alam kong andyan lang sa tabi ko c God..at alam kong hindi nya ko pababayaan..nagtitiwala ako sa Diyos ko at alam kong hindi nya ko bibiguin..kailangan ko lang tlagang masanay at matuto na tumanggap ng katotohanan..kahit masakit, kailangan kayanin ko parin kc kung hindi, magiging sira ang buhay ko..kailangan kong maging matapang para harapin lahat ng mga problema na kinakaharap ko ngaun..kahit masakit, kahit mahirap, basta para sa mga mahal ko sa buhay, gagawin ko..kc alam ko na they are worth it for my love and sacrifice..at ang paniniwala ko ay hindi din nila ako bibiguin...sana nga tama ang mga paniniwala ko.....cge hanggang dito nalang..iiyak pa ko eh..wehe...
>>>seventeen
>>>seventeen
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
really cool day..
Uhmmm, to tell you guys honestly, i am feeling bad today, as in im sick..my head aches, i have these bruises on my arm and i have a slight fever. But even though I know that I have these complications, I didn't consider these things as a wall or something that can stop me to do the things that I have to do, I also didn't consider this as a problem for me to continue my day. Although im sick, I still continued my day and as always, I make it a point to have something cool each day. So my goal for today is to be lively and happy despite of all the complications I have.
When I arrived in Zobel, I saw that the La Salle bus was already there, I somehow thought that my "ate" is in that bus. But I just went to the chapel because I'm not so sure if she's really there. Knowing that I haven't really prayed seriously that day, I thought that maybe, my "ate" really isn't there because I haven't prayed for that thing yet. But it was amazing because I was able to see "ate" and I was also able to hug her. Anne Lao was also there so there were two of us who approached "ate", but that wasn't a hassle to me because Anne is my friend. So there, Anne left already and "ate" and I went the same direction so I said bye to her while touching her hair and she replied by saying bye to me while holding my elbow. It was such a fulfilling event, but I heard something when Anne and my "ate" were talking. It's like "ate" said that she's leaving, but remember that I am not sure, not very sure and it means that I shouldn't believe it yet until she's the one that would tell me about that thing and I'm hoping that what I've heard is WRONG. Also another concern is I hugged "ate" when I should just have avoided her because I am sick, but she's the one who saw me and called me so I just went up to her and hugged her, I just hope that she didn't got infected by my fever because if she got it from me, I will really hate myself...I'm not joking, I don't want to be the cause of her or shall I say their sickness because her baby is still inside her. Please tell me that she's safe from my virus. wehe.. After that, I went inside the chapel and thanked God for what had just happened, I was about to cry that time because I was thanking Him for that great thing and at the same time, I was praying that what I've heard is wrong, but I stopped my tears from falling down because I think that it is an embarassing moment if I'm gonne cry inside the chapel with many people inside. I just prayed seriously and it made me feel better. Then when I was going up stairs, I saw mader and she was like so shocked and really hugged me tight, I liked the way she called and treated me. Her new hair style's just good, steady. So that's the thing that happened to me this morning and it made me have a good start for my day.
So there, first subject was English, and as usual, for me, it was a boring hour. Imagine, an hour with a person that always ignores you every recitation. It's very unfair, I have a grade for that thing and what will happen if this will continue? don't tell me that she's going to give me a low score in recitation?!? she's the one who doesn't want me to recite so she doesn't have any reason to give me a low score because it's her fault..ok, enough about that boring hour. Algebra was the next subject and it was quite cool and fun because the lessons weren't that hard and the result of my first quiz in that subject is perfect that's why I'm so happy.
After that, it was our recess time already and I was very happy again. We were going down stairs when I saw "ate" again and so I hugged her arms..wehe..then she touched my head and said, "Hiiiiii Tin!" and I was very speachless after that..wehe..and then I saw Sab and she told me that she's going to go with us so we decided to go in another way to find "ate". I thought that "ate" went again to the Director's office thing, but I was wrong, I wasn't able to see her there. So we just went on and when we were near the gym already, we saw my "ate" and I was shocked because I never expected that I'm gonna see her again and it was already for the 3rd time. Yey, this time, I was able to hug her tight and solo, she told me that she's going to a meeting in the other building, and me being concerned to her, I told her that, "why is it so far from the other building when infact they know that you're pregnant?" she just replied like this. "I don't know with them, they're giving me a hard time and it made me have an idea to use roller skates the next time that we're going to have another meeting in the other buiding. wehe, it was so laughtrip that time, that before we separated, we laughed so loud and we were like weird people, but it somehow makes me think that it was like a short bonding time for the both of us. So I really felt good after that despite my sickness. It was really a great recess time and I'm very thankful that somehow, we were able to talk to each other.
Next period is Trigonometry and it's just a good period. It is because the lessons were quite hard but we already recieved the result of our first quiz and once again, with God's grace, I was able to get a perfect score. Next period is CL and it was just a fine period because we just watched about St. Paul but it was such an interesting story. After is Lunch time, while we were going down to have our lunch, Ms. Rhia saw my bruises in my arm and just told her that I had my menstration that's why I was able to get a mark from that time. Then lunch was just a good time for us to talk and I had a great time bonding with my friends. Next is swimming and we just made a play about saving one's life incase someone drowns. Then after is AP and it was great, Ms. Ruiz gave us a time to rest because we came from our PE class, the discussion was great because she made it lively with her jokes. Next is Music and we had a great time practicing playing our "angklungs"?!? I don't know the correct spelling. Oh well, Ms. Aldea said that we were the first group to made it great in playing it without her help. It was great because we made some movements that would make our presentation a good one, even though that time I had migrain, I still continued for the success of our group.
That was my day and it was so cool. I love this day so much. God, I thank you because I know that you're the reason behind my happiness. Thanks so much for giving me a very cool day. I owe you one, I promise to be good and to study hard for me to give thanks to you. I love you so much God, you're really the best God of all. I promise to be faithful to you forever and I'm sorry if there were times that I questioned you before. I promise to make up for all of these things. That's all and I hope that I'm gonna have another wonderful day ahead of me.
>>>seventeen
When I arrived in Zobel, I saw that the La Salle bus was already there, I somehow thought that my "ate" is in that bus. But I just went to the chapel because I'm not so sure if she's really there. Knowing that I haven't really prayed seriously that day, I thought that maybe, my "ate" really isn't there because I haven't prayed for that thing yet. But it was amazing because I was able to see "ate" and I was also able to hug her. Anne Lao was also there so there were two of us who approached "ate", but that wasn't a hassle to me because Anne is my friend. So there, Anne left already and "ate" and I went the same direction so I said bye to her while touching her hair and she replied by saying bye to me while holding my elbow. It was such a fulfilling event, but I heard something when Anne and my "ate" were talking. It's like "ate" said that she's leaving, but remember that I am not sure, not very sure and it means that I shouldn't believe it yet until she's the one that would tell me about that thing and I'm hoping that what I've heard is WRONG. Also another concern is I hugged "ate" when I should just have avoided her because I am sick, but she's the one who saw me and called me so I just went up to her and hugged her, I just hope that she didn't got infected by my fever because if she got it from me, I will really hate myself...I'm not joking, I don't want to be the cause of her or shall I say their sickness because her baby is still inside her. Please tell me that she's safe from my virus. wehe.. After that, I went inside the chapel and thanked God for what had just happened, I was about to cry that time because I was thanking Him for that great thing and at the same time, I was praying that what I've heard is wrong, but I stopped my tears from falling down because I think that it is an embarassing moment if I'm gonne cry inside the chapel with many people inside. I just prayed seriously and it made me feel better. Then when I was going up stairs, I saw mader and she was like so shocked and really hugged me tight, I liked the way she called and treated me. Her new hair style's just good, steady. So that's the thing that happened to me this morning and it made me have a good start for my day.
So there, first subject was English, and as usual, for me, it was a boring hour. Imagine, an hour with a person that always ignores you every recitation. It's very unfair, I have a grade for that thing and what will happen if this will continue? don't tell me that she's going to give me a low score in recitation?!? she's the one who doesn't want me to recite so she doesn't have any reason to give me a low score because it's her fault..ok, enough about that boring hour. Algebra was the next subject and it was quite cool and fun because the lessons weren't that hard and the result of my first quiz in that subject is perfect that's why I'm so happy.
After that, it was our recess time already and I was very happy again. We were going down stairs when I saw "ate" again and so I hugged her arms..wehe..then she touched my head and said, "Hiiiiii Tin!" and I was very speachless after that..wehe..and then I saw Sab and she told me that she's going to go with us so we decided to go in another way to find "ate". I thought that "ate" went again to the Director's office thing, but I was wrong, I wasn't able to see her there. So we just went on and when we were near the gym already, we saw my "ate" and I was shocked because I never expected that I'm gonna see her again and it was already for the 3rd time. Yey, this time, I was able to hug her tight and solo, she told me that she's going to a meeting in the other building, and me being concerned to her, I told her that, "why is it so far from the other building when infact they know that you're pregnant?" she just replied like this. "I don't know with them, they're giving me a hard time and it made me have an idea to use roller skates the next time that we're going to have another meeting in the other buiding. wehe, it was so laughtrip that time, that before we separated, we laughed so loud and we were like weird people, but it somehow makes me think that it was like a short bonding time for the both of us. So I really felt good after that despite my sickness. It was really a great recess time and I'm very thankful that somehow, we were able to talk to each other.
Next period is Trigonometry and it's just a good period. It is because the lessons were quite hard but we already recieved the result of our first quiz and once again, with God's grace, I was able to get a perfect score. Next period is CL and it was just a fine period because we just watched about St. Paul but it was such an interesting story. After is Lunch time, while we were going down to have our lunch, Ms. Rhia saw my bruises in my arm and just told her that I had my menstration that's why I was able to get a mark from that time. Then lunch was just a good time for us to talk and I had a great time bonding with my friends. Next is swimming and we just made a play about saving one's life incase someone drowns. Then after is AP and it was great, Ms. Ruiz gave us a time to rest because we came from our PE class, the discussion was great because she made it lively with her jokes. Next is Music and we had a great time practicing playing our "angklungs"?!? I don't know the correct spelling. Oh well, Ms. Aldea said that we were the first group to made it great in playing it without her help. It was great because we made some movements that would make our presentation a good one, even though that time I had migrain, I still continued for the success of our group.
That was my day and it was so cool. I love this day so much. God, I thank you because I know that you're the reason behind my happiness. Thanks so much for giving me a very cool day. I owe you one, I promise to be good and to study hard for me to give thanks to you. I love you so much God, you're really the best God of all. I promise to be faithful to you forever and I'm sorry if there were times that I questioned you before. I promise to make up for all of these things. That's all and I hope that I'm gonna have another wonderful day ahead of me.
>>>seventeen
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
it was such a fine day..
Ang araw ko ngaun ay ayos lang..i was able to see my "ate" two times but still, i wasn't able to talk to her. Cguro hindi pa ito ang tamang panahon para makausap ko cya pero alam ko na darating ang panahon na magkakausap din kami tungkol sa mga bagay bagay. Masaya nako kahit konti na atleast i saw my "ate" na ok, na fine at maayos. Isang magandang bagay na yun para sa araw na toh dahil ngaun, alam ko kahit papano ang present na condition nya. sana lang magkaroon kami ng mas matagal na time for each other so that we could talk about our lives and share stories with each other. Ang tagal na kc namin hindi nag kukwentuhan, nagtetext at nageemail sa isa't isa kaya bad3p. Sana soon ay magkaroon kami ng oras para sa isa't isa at sana mabisita ko cya at mawala na ulit ang hiya na namumuo nanaman sa akin. Basta para sakin, ang kasiyahan ko lang ngaun ay makita ang mga mahal ko sa buhay na nasa maayos na kalagayan lalo na ngaun c"ate" kc pregnant cya at kailangan kong bantayan ang conditon nya para if ever, i can help her pag may complications. Para rin matulungan ko cya sa work nya if ever pagod na cya dahil nga preggy cya. Kinakabahan kc ako pag may mga times na matagal ko na cyang hindi nakikita at hindi nalalaman ang kalagayan nya kaya sana, ang hiling ko ay magkaroon kami ng updates sa isa't isa kung maaari lang sana. kaya nga lang wala cyang cellphone ngaun at marami rin cyang inaasikaso para mag email pa sakin. Hiling ko nalang ngaun ay simple, na kahit isa o dalawang beses sa isang linggo ay makita ko cya, kahit hindi makausap basta makita ko na maayos ang lagay nya ay ok na, just to assure me that she's in a good condition. And I always pray for her naman and I know that God is always listening to me kaya I don't have to worry that much because I know that God is always taking good care of my "ate". Alam kong hindi papabayaan ng Diyos ang napakabait na tao tulad ng "ate" ko at nagtitiwala ako sa ating Diyos.
Basta God, just always guide my "ate". Don't leave her side and always take care of her and also of her baby inside. Also, take care of "kuya nes" who's in another country right now working for his family. Always guide them and always assure me that they're in a good condition. I believe in you God and I know that you'll never put me down. You know how important these things for me because I'm praying for my second family. You know that they're the people who always make me feel the love, care, sweetness and support that I need in my life that's why they are very much loved by me coz I just return the goodness that they are showing me. I am very much thankful that you gave them to me to be a part of my life and somehow, to be my family who's always there to give their full support and cover up the emptiness in my heart. They completed me and because of that, I consider them as my treasures and I will always keep them here in my heart and never will I forget them.
Thank you God for everything and I hope that you'll continue giving me and my family the blessings you've always showered upon us. I'm entrusting you my life Lord, I know that you have plans for me and I'm thankful that you included me in your plans. It's such a very nice thing to have a very wonderful God like you and I am very happy that I am beggining to be close to you and to have more faith in you. I just want to thank you for always listening to my prayers and to my problems; you're such an amazing God and I love you!!!!
>>>seventeen
Basta God, just always guide my "ate". Don't leave her side and always take care of her and also of her baby inside. Also, take care of "kuya nes" who's in another country right now working for his family. Always guide them and always assure me that they're in a good condition. I believe in you God and I know that you'll never put me down. You know how important these things for me because I'm praying for my second family. You know that they're the people who always make me feel the love, care, sweetness and support that I need in my life that's why they are very much loved by me coz I just return the goodness that they are showing me. I am very much thankful that you gave them to me to be a part of my life and somehow, to be my family who's always there to give their full support and cover up the emptiness in my heart. They completed me and because of that, I consider them as my treasures and I will always keep them here in my heart and never will I forget them.
Thank you God for everything and I hope that you'll continue giving me and my family the blessings you've always showered upon us. I'm entrusting you my life Lord, I know that you have plans for me and I'm thankful that you included me in your plans. It's such a very nice thing to have a very wonderful God like you and I am very happy that I am beggining to be close to you and to have more faith in you. I just want to thank you for always listening to my prayers and to my problems; you're such an amazing God and I love you!!!!
>>>seventeen
Friday, June 17, 2005
still unfinished..
Wala lang, ngaung araw medyo ok lang naman..hindi masyadong masaya, di masyadong malungkot, tama nga lang kasi..
Cyempre nung umaga I've done my business..it's the thing about mader na ngaun ko lang nagawa kc masyado akong shy..haaaay, ngaun namang Friday na, tsaka ko lang cya nagawa at parang hindi cya successful kc parang bitin at parang may pataboy effect cya..yun bang parang gusto nya na kaming paalisin agad, ewan ko ba, kala ko ba iniintay nya kami tapos paaalisin lang kami agad, nakakainis kaya yun..yun bang parang wala lang yung ginawa mong effort para puntahan ka even though alam mong hassle yun gawin, pero ginawa mo na nga eh, pero wala parin..haaay nako, hindi ko maintindihan ang buhay ko..pero ok na nga rin, atleast nagkausap kahit saglit, kahit nilamutak lang niya ang mukha ko, ok narin..pero talagang may kulang eh, ewan ko ba, bahala na nga si batman..nabibwiset nako..
Next week, I will try my best to do what I can to make others and also myself happy, I hope that I will be able to accomplish this thing easily and be successful at it..sana lang I will be brave next week, sana maging maayos na ang week ko next week..successful kay "ate", kay mader, sa studies at cyempre sa pamilya..sana mawala na tong sunod sunod kong kamalasan..
Diyos ko, sana pagbigyan nyo na po ulit ako kc hirap na hirap nako about sa thing na nangyayari sa relationship ko with "ate" and mader, I mean us, being a family..parang nawawala nanaman yung connection pero really, I will try my best na mapa-stay tong connection na natitira..hinding hindi ako susuko at ayoko na ulit maulit yung mga pagkakamali ko sa kanila dati..iiwasan ko nang saktan ang sarili ko at cyempre cla..gagawin ko ang lahat para maging masaya kami, sana maging successful ako..
Hanggang dito nalang..next time nlang ulit, pagpasensiyahan nyo nalang ako sa kadramahan ko..sorry..
>>>seventeen
Cyempre nung umaga I've done my business..it's the thing about mader na ngaun ko lang nagawa kc masyado akong shy..haaaay, ngaun namang Friday na, tsaka ko lang cya nagawa at parang hindi cya successful kc parang bitin at parang may pataboy effect cya..yun bang parang gusto nya na kaming paalisin agad, ewan ko ba, kala ko ba iniintay nya kami tapos paaalisin lang kami agad, nakakainis kaya yun..yun bang parang wala lang yung ginawa mong effort para puntahan ka even though alam mong hassle yun gawin, pero ginawa mo na nga eh, pero wala parin..haaay nako, hindi ko maintindihan ang buhay ko..pero ok na nga rin, atleast nagkausap kahit saglit, kahit nilamutak lang niya ang mukha ko, ok narin..pero talagang may kulang eh, ewan ko ba, bahala na nga si batman..nabibwiset nako..
Next week, I will try my best to do what I can to make others and also myself happy, I hope that I will be able to accomplish this thing easily and be successful at it..sana lang I will be brave next week, sana maging maayos na ang week ko next week..successful kay "ate", kay mader, sa studies at cyempre sa pamilya..sana mawala na tong sunod sunod kong kamalasan..
Diyos ko, sana pagbigyan nyo na po ulit ako kc hirap na hirap nako about sa thing na nangyayari sa relationship ko with "ate" and mader, I mean us, being a family..parang nawawala nanaman yung connection pero really, I will try my best na mapa-stay tong connection na natitira..hinding hindi ako susuko at ayoko na ulit maulit yung mga pagkakamali ko sa kanila dati..iiwasan ko nang saktan ang sarili ko at cyempre cla..gagawin ko ang lahat para maging masaya kami, sana maging successful ako..
Hanggang dito nalang..next time nlang ulit, pagpasensiyahan nyo nalang ako sa kadramahan ko..sorry..
>>>seventeen
Saturday, June 11, 2005
gimmick..
This is a very wonderful day for me, well, medyo exhausting pero it was really fun..we went on a gimmick, kami ni jenny and Karen, tapos nung mga bandang umaga, andun c Eunice na ksama namin sa pic..wehe..la lang..dapat kasama din namin c ate nash pero wala cya eh, d cya nakasunod kasi puyat cya..alam nyo sobrang saya ko talaga kasi kahit papano I was with my friends kaya nawala lahat ng pagod at mga iniisip ko..haaaay..ok narin kc napalayo ako kahit sandali sa mga problema ko..mahal ko ang mga kaibigan ko dahil kahit papano naiaalis nila sa isip ko ang sandamukal na problema, kahit sa mga gimmicks lang ok na..at dahil dito sa mga toh, sumasaya ako kahit papano..malaking bagay sa buhay ko ang magkaroon ng mga kaibigang tulad nila na laging andyan para damayan ako..sana hindi nila ako iwanan..mahal na mahal ko sila at ang iba ko pang mga kaibigan..sana magpatuloy ang pagkakaibigan naming lahat hanggang kamatayan..yun lang, I just discussed about the importance of my friends to me and how thankful I am that I knew them..thank you so much guys..you're the best..
Yun lang for now..see you next time..wehe..
>>>seventeen
Yun lang for now..see you next time..wehe..
>>>seventeen
Friday, June 10, 2005
good morning..
wala lang, thank you God, once again, u granted my prayer..i love you so much God, your the best..
kc it was like this, i went to the chapel knina coz every morning, i got to the chapel naman talaga, so nagdasal ako na sana maging masaya ako ngaun para matapos yung week ko na masaya, at ang bilis ako pinagbigyan ng Diyos, paglabas ko palang ng chapel, i saw so many teachers na so i was wondering and thingking if "ate" is there..so i just walked one step and saw "ate" immediately and i was like, i dont have any reaction sa face ko sa sobrang gulat, she reached out her hands and hugged me tight so i also hugged her, she told me. "good morning tin tin" and i just hugged her tighter coz i don't wanna speak kc nga sobra akong nagulat kc kakadasal ko lang, binigay na agad and im very happy about this thing..yun, it was a very bright and beautiful moring..dahil sa kanya nabuhayan ako kc i was like so bad3p ng umaga kc parang ang boring ng araw pero dahil sa kanya, nawala lahat ng ganung feeling and im very thankful to God and to "ate"..ang cute pa ng suot ni "ate"..white stretch na shirt tapos pink na pants..naks naman, kahit buntis, maganda parin ang fashion style..idol ko talaga ang aking "ate"..
tapos naman nung mass, even though i wasnt able to talk to her, i saw mader so ok narin.. tsaka medyo nagiging ok nako makipag usap kay ms rafon..wala lang, natutuwa lang ako kc meron nakong bagong tcher na nakakausap..
tapos ang buong first week ko naman sa skul ay masaya pero at the same time, it was so exhausting grabe..so many research works agad..pero ok lang, wala naman magagawa eh, as if mapipigilan ko ang mga tchers ko na magbigay ng HW..cyempre hindi..wehe..
so yun lang for now..c u nalang people somewhere out there over the rainbow..=)
basta God, thanks so much po talaga..i love you so much..
>>>seventeen
kc it was like this, i went to the chapel knina coz every morning, i got to the chapel naman talaga, so nagdasal ako na sana maging masaya ako ngaun para matapos yung week ko na masaya, at ang bilis ako pinagbigyan ng Diyos, paglabas ko palang ng chapel, i saw so many teachers na so i was wondering and thingking if "ate" is there..so i just walked one step and saw "ate" immediately and i was like, i dont have any reaction sa face ko sa sobrang gulat, she reached out her hands and hugged me tight so i also hugged her, she told me. "good morning tin tin" and i just hugged her tighter coz i don't wanna speak kc nga sobra akong nagulat kc kakadasal ko lang, binigay na agad and im very happy about this thing..yun, it was a very bright and beautiful moring..dahil sa kanya nabuhayan ako kc i was like so bad3p ng umaga kc parang ang boring ng araw pero dahil sa kanya, nawala lahat ng ganung feeling and im very thankful to God and to "ate"..ang cute pa ng suot ni "ate"..white stretch na shirt tapos pink na pants..naks naman, kahit buntis, maganda parin ang fashion style..idol ko talaga ang aking "ate"..
tapos naman nung mass, even though i wasnt able to talk to her, i saw mader so ok narin.. tsaka medyo nagiging ok nako makipag usap kay ms rafon..wala lang, natutuwa lang ako kc meron nakong bagong tcher na nakakausap..
tapos ang buong first week ko naman sa skul ay masaya pero at the same time, it was so exhausting grabe..so many research works agad..pero ok lang, wala naman magagawa eh, as if mapipigilan ko ang mga tchers ko na magbigay ng HW..cyempre hindi..wehe..
so yun lang for now..c u nalang people somewhere out there over the rainbow..=)
basta God, thanks so much po talaga..i love you so much..
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
My day today was such a beautiful one. This is the first time in this school year that I saw "ate" and I'm so proud of myself because I wasn't shy like what I used to be. I was able to hold her arms, hug her and somehow talk to her. When I saw her, I immediately ran towards her and I grabbed her left arm and hugged it. Then when she saw me, she was shocked and at the same time she was smiling so I guess that she was happy seeing me that time. I guess that she had never forgotten that she's a special person to me and that I love her so much because she really made me feel that I'm special to her and that she really considers me as her own and true sister. She asked me about how I am and I just nodded. She also asked me if it's our recess time and I just once again nodded. She asked me where I'm going and I told her that I'm going to go with her. So I went with her. I accompanied her towards the director's office--I guess because I'm not really sure where we went. I helped her open the door and I had a great time being with her even in just a few minutes. Then after I had accompanied her towards that office, I said bye to her and she said the same.
I am so glad that the Lord finally granted my prayers that took the whole summer. This is a good week for me so I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for me to end the week. I feel that I'm so much blessed by the Lord that I feel very calm and light right now. I guess that if you really concentrate with your prayers and your wishes--soon and in the right time, you will be able to get it and achieve everything that is destined for you. We just have to wait and be patient in praying for our wants and needs. I hope that this kind of feeling will continue so that I can always have a bright and happy day. I don't care about homeworks, it's just extra works so I still have time for my private life like now, I am still able to post an entry here although i still have to do many stuff.
So that's all for now and I hope that tomorrow will be a great day for all of us despite af the tons and tons of work that we have to do. God bless you all and may God guide my sister always.
I TRUST YOU GOD AND I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! I LOVE GOD VERY MUCH!!!
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I am so glad that the Lord finally granted my prayers that took the whole summer. This is a good week for me so I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for me to end the week. I feel that I'm so much blessed by the Lord that I feel very calm and light right now. I guess that if you really concentrate with your prayers and your wishes--soon and in the right time, you will be able to get it and achieve everything that is destined for you. We just have to wait and be patient in praying for our wants and needs. I hope that this kind of feeling will continue so that I can always have a bright and happy day. I don't care about homeworks, it's just extra works so I still have time for my private life like now, I am still able to post an entry here although i still have to do many stuff.
So that's all for now and I hope that tomorrow will be a great day for all of us despite af the tons and tons of work that we have to do. God bless you all and may God guide my sister always.
I TRUST YOU GOD AND I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! I LOVE GOD VERY MUCH!!!
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