The Girl Dreamer
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Sweet Experience
This day was kinda sweet. When I came to my school, I went to the chapel then afterwards, I went up to leave my bag infront of my classroom. Then I went to my FC, karen's classroom and she asked me to come with her to the bookstore. So we went to the bookstore to buy pentel because she needed it for filipino class. Then when we got to the main building, natie, my classmate told me that "daddy" was looking for me. I didn't believe her because I thought she was just joking. But after a few minutes, "daddy" came to our classroom and he called me. He asked me to check the test papers of the people in our class. He told me to stay in their classroom so I did. I didn't even attended the flag ceremony because "daddy" told me to just stay there and continue checking papers. Before he got out of the classroom, he told me some things and asked me some questions about "ate". Then after that, he saw that I was already sweating because it was hot. He wiped my sweat with his hands and I was really touched because of that action that he did to me. He didn't even bothered to wipe his hands after that. He really acted natural infront of me that he always treats me like his true daughter. I really like this day because of that. Then finally, after the flag ceremony, he told me to go back to my classroom already.
When it was our CL time, Ms.Kyra went to our classroom and I was really happy coz we had our guidance class. We went to the building in division one. We stayed in their gym and we were with the senior prep kids. Our goal is to play with them and teach them some things. We got our own partners and my partner was kathrine. She was a chubby, but a cute little kid. She was quiet because maybe she's shy. We played many stuff and our class really had fun. I also played with the tintin, she was the sister of mary. Then I also played with kobe, the brother of yvana. I really like kids that's why I really had fun playing with them and teaching them stuff. I hope we'll have another activity like that.
When it was already our club, "daddy" told me to continue checking papers so I did. Me and "daddy" also bonded with each other and talked about some things. I really had fun talking with him. He also asked my birthday and he even told me that he will give me a gift. I don't know if that's true, but I don't really care about gifts. Atleast he greets me, it's already ok with me and I'll be happy. I felt bad when I was with sab, samgee, marga and karen because when I was there, they are the only ones talking and I was like left out. I felt sad because sab and karen were my closest friends and yet, they treat my like that. Oh well, that's life..what can I do about it?!? I just have to accept that I'm just one of their old friends that they can snob. haaaaay!!!!!!
I hope my days will continue to be happy and balanced. I'm just a little sad because I didn't get a chance to talk to my "ate" which is the person that I really wanna see everyday. To bad, but it's ok coz atleast, I had a little bonding with "daddy". I'll treasure this day and I'll really try to avoid having a bad day coz it's fun having great and wonderful days with many sweet and wonderful experiences with friends and others. til next time..=)
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When it was our CL time, Ms.Kyra went to our classroom and I was really happy coz we had our guidance class. We went to the building in division one. We stayed in their gym and we were with the senior prep kids. Our goal is to play with them and teach them some things. We got our own partners and my partner was kathrine. She was a chubby, but a cute little kid. She was quiet because maybe she's shy. We played many stuff and our class really had fun. I also played with the tintin, she was the sister of mary. Then I also played with kobe, the brother of yvana. I really like kids that's why I really had fun playing with them and teaching them stuff. I hope we'll have another activity like that.
When it was already our club, "daddy" told me to continue checking papers so I did. Me and "daddy" also bonded with each other and talked about some things. I really had fun talking with him. He also asked my birthday and he even told me that he will give me a gift. I don't know if that's true, but I don't really care about gifts. Atleast he greets me, it's already ok with me and I'll be happy. I felt bad when I was with sab, samgee, marga and karen because when I was there, they are the only ones talking and I was like left out. I felt sad because sab and karen were my closest friends and yet, they treat my like that. Oh well, that's life..what can I do about it?!? I just have to accept that I'm just one of their old friends that they can snob. haaaaay!!!!!!
I hope my days will continue to be happy and balanced. I'm just a little sad because I didn't get a chance to talk to my "ate" which is the person that I really wanna see everyday. To bad, but it's ok coz atleast, I had a little bonding with "daddy". I'll treasure this day and I'll really try to avoid having a bad day coz it's fun having great and wonderful days with many sweet and wonderful experiences with friends and others. til next time..=)
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004
All Balanced
My day was just ok. It had a bad part but it also had its good part. It was just balanced. I'm thankful that I don't have any reason to cry today. Although my day was quite boring, one part of it was exciting. That was the time that the girls that me and my friends hated was scolded by our teacher and our teacher really emphasized the things we hate about those girls. haha..=) Me and my friends wanted to laugh that time but we didn't because we might also be scolded. We just played safe. The girls that we really hated had a face that was like crumpled..they were "nakasimangot" and they were really mad at our teacher. Well, it's their fault! They have no right to be mad or something..=) They have to face the consequences of their action. Besides, they really deserve it naman eh. Haaaaay..=)
The other thing that happened was that, I saw the person that I want to talk to, but I wasn't able to talk to that person because of some people and she's also in a hurry to go to her class. I really hated myself that time. It was like the person is there already and yet I've wasted the opportunity AGAIN. It's always like that. Why am I always shy or something?! Why can't I have a brave heart and a brave soul to do the things that I want with no hesitations?! I again feel so helpless, but I just looked at it in a different way. I just told myself that maybe, this is not just the right time for us to talk coz she's busy. But I still feel so helpless..That was already my chance to atleast say Hi! But I didn't do it because of my shyness.=( It's always like that. Grrrrrrrr! I hope that by tomorrow, I'll be able to atleast say Hi! to her. I really want to overcome my shyness! I hope I'll make it by tomorrow.
Isn't it that life is balanced when you just think of the things that's happening to you. You'll have happiness, but there is also sadness that will come your way. It can't happen that you'll have happiness all the time or vice versa. It's just like, many babies are being born each day, but there are also many people dying all over the world. It can't happen that no one will die. Because of this I've realized that even if I have a bad day sometimes, there will always a happy day that will come and that's for sure. We just have to keep on hoping till we have what we want. Just also keep praying for it is powerful and will never let you down. That's all for now. =)
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The other thing that happened was that, I saw the person that I want to talk to, but I wasn't able to talk to that person because of some people and she's also in a hurry to go to her class. I really hated myself that time. It was like the person is there already and yet I've wasted the opportunity AGAIN. It's always like that. Why am I always shy or something?! Why can't I have a brave heart and a brave soul to do the things that I want with no hesitations?! I again feel so helpless, but I just looked at it in a different way. I just told myself that maybe, this is not just the right time for us to talk coz she's busy. But I still feel so helpless..That was already my chance to atleast say Hi! But I didn't do it because of my shyness.=( It's always like that. Grrrrrrrr! I hope that by tomorrow, I'll be able to atleast say Hi! to her. I really want to overcome my shyness! I hope I'll make it by tomorrow.
Isn't it that life is balanced when you just think of the things that's happening to you. You'll have happiness, but there is also sadness that will come your way. It can't happen that you'll have happiness all the time or vice versa. It's just like, many babies are being born each day, but there are also many people dying all over the world. It can't happen that no one will die. Because of this I've realized that even if I have a bad day sometimes, there will always a happy day that will come and that's for sure. We just have to keep on hoping till we have what we want. Just also keep praying for it is powerful and will never let you down. That's all for now. =)
>>>seventeen
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
One Simple Day
Today was an extra ordinary day because for the first time, walang nangyaring masama at happy ako..=) i hope that my days will continue improving from now on..i wanna live happily that's why im really trying to make everyday of my life a memorable one. Today, I didn't have any complications on anything. I was calm the whole day and that's an amazing thing for me. Usually, I always feel nervous or something, but today nothing like that happened and it was really surprising for me. haaaay! I hope these things will continue. Anyways, I'm thingking of something, but i don't wanna remember it so never mind nalang..=) I just don't want my day to be sad again. wehe..=) I read the blog of my "sister" kanina and i was touched. Actually, it's because i can relate and i feel her pain. Pero cyempre, mas malala parin ung sa kanya. haaaay! I hope that everyone here on earth ay maging masaya lagi para happy world na..wehe..la lng..i just feel like flying..=)Nakabonding ko pa si "daddy" kanina kahit di ako masyadong nakapagsalita..wehe..pero happy parin..=) I can't really imagine that my day was this great..=) sana i'll be happier tom and in the days to come..cge, im gonna study pa pala for my AP and CL quiz..=) til my next post..bye!
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